I've been thinking that maybe all my cliche'd boy trouble is actually a blessing in disguise
I mean, of course it still sucks and all
And I'm still really sad about it
But I've hardly thought about a lot of the other issues I deal with
Which has been really nice
I like not thinking about that all the time
It's definitely a good change of pace
I hate the situation
And I wish it would've worked out more (if only he were closer D:)
But it's better than other stuff I deal with
Anyways ... what else is new?
Well today I did basically the same thing I do everyday
I did some writing
About three poems I think
I don't think I'll put them on Allpoetry
There's too many people who read that
I get to have some friends over for the weekend (possibly)
Which is always fun
Yeah ... I'm pretty boring
So I think I'll go
Bye!
Hearts! <3
Day 16 - Something Embarassing in your room
Yeah ... I used to be obsessed with Twilight -_- I find it very embarassing
Day 17 - Your pet(s)
My baby girl, Clea. I lovers her so much. <3
Day 18 - Your favorite outfit
I'm not taking a picture of it cause I ish too lazy.It's my MCR (SIGNED!!!!) t-shirt, my ripped up skinny jeans, and my black converse high tops.
For those of you who don't know, SLC Punk is a 90s movie
It's about these two punks (during the 80s), mostly about Stevo
It's just really ... I really like it
Overall it's kind of ... weird. And in the begining it's funny
But it has a lot of depth to it
I'm bringing this up because I was just rewatching it today
And I remembered how much I love this movie
And I definitely recommend it
So ... yeah I think that's all
That's right
I'm going to spam you
Because my friend, Ivy (yes, her name is Ivy as well. Except that's really her name, not a nickname like moi)
And her friend Mimi made a blog
And she's trying to get more readers
It's for a noble cause
She wants to be a psychiatrist when she is older, so she made a blog called teens4teens (the web address is 1teenn4teens.blogspot.com)
The title pretty much implies it all
So can you humor me? Pleasssssssssssssssssssse?
(Because you love me oh so much)
I understand if you don't
But it'd be pretty awesome if you did :D
Hearts <3
Yeah ... I lied about next post being happy
So here's a random playlist so I don't get to ... annoying
And yes, it does have significant value, but that is a secret
So *hush hush*
Run - Snow Patrol
Hey there Delilah - Plain White T's
Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick
Cath - Death Cab fo Cutie
Is there a Ghost - Band of Horses
The Funeral - Band of Horses
Piano Man - Billy Joel
What if We Could - Blue October
She's my Ride Home - Blue October
Give me a Sign - Breaking Benjamin
Into the Nothing - Breaking Benjamin
Yellow - Coldplay
Speed of sound - Coldplay
Let go - Frou Frou
Use Somebody - Kings of Leon
Thistle & Weeds - Mumford & Sons
The End. - My Chemical Romance
This is how I Disappear - My Chemical Romance
I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance
Sleep - My Chemical Romance
Demolition Lovers - My Chemical Romance
Desert Song - My Chemical Romance
Scars - Papa Roach
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Landslide - Stevie Nicks
Stand in the Rain - (S)uperchick
You know when you listen to a song
And it just seems to fit your current emotion and thought process
So. Perfectly. ?
Yeah, What if we Could by Blue October came on and I kept thinking
Exactly, completely, indefinitely.
And just because I'm a nut for lyrics, here are the lyrics to it :D
What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
2, 3, 4...
On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
I'm glad to say that we've met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side
So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star
What if we could?
Where would we go?
If it felt right
Would you want me to know
I would meet you
Would you meet me
It's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise
Can't somehow exist
I would meet you
Would you meet me
I'm glad to say that we've met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side
So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star
A superstar in my eyes
In my eyes
Look in my eyes
Just look in my eyes
My eyes
My eyes!!!
What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
God I would
God I would
I would meet you
Would you meet me
I would meet you
I would meet you
I would meet you
And this song is just because it is ...
It's so perfect
And it makes me so sad for ... reasons
But I love it for ... reasons
Actually, there's only one reason. And it's the same reason
This song actually kind of fits well with What if We Could
Which I think is pretty awesome
So ... here are the lyrics to Run by Snow Patrol
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want's to find an easy way
To get out of our little heads
Hush Hush my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
To be completely honest ... I never thought I'd cry about a guy.
This is why I've always distanced myself
Why is it not a surprise that as soon as I let my guard down
It comes back to bite me?
It makes me feel like such a god damn cliche -_-
*Exuse my French* I fucking hate cliches
But that's really all it was I guess
-_- I thought I was done complaining about this, but I guess not
I know. I suck. I'm very aware of my major suckage at the moment
I'll get out of this soon
I'll move on and stop being such a cliche
And stop being such a girl
I really thought that we would actually be able to make it work
Obviously I was wrong
Truly and honestly I am
I'm sorry that everytime I blog I'm in a bad mood (like right now)
I truly, honestly, swear on my life, am sorry
But suck it up and deal with my complaining
I don't know why I feel so down right now
It's almost like when I was little ... well I wasn't that little
And while I was in bed trying to go to sleep
I would start thinking about the apocolypse of natural disasters and I wouldn't be able to sleep
It was like clockwork
It's like that now
I can't sleep
I can't think
It's like clockwork
I'm 12 all over again
Except instead of being scared I'm sad or angry
But I'm probably just being a teenager
Best years of our lives my ass
I don't know where the adults get the idea that these are the best years of our lives
Cause I'm having a pretty shitty time to be completely honest
School sucks
Friends suck
Parents suck
And situations ... which I don't feel comfortable plunging into ... completely suck
It's all just a big ball of suck
And I hate it
And I wish it would just go away *stereotypical pout ie: crossed arms, pout lips, sad eyes*
I'm sorry guys
Next post I promise I'll be
Idk ... funny or something
Well actually the next post will be a photo challenge
So ... after that
Hearts <3
It's like ... 1 where I am
Not too late, but you know
I'm waiting for my movie to finish downloading from itunes so I can watch it
And so I'm sitting around and I turn on my iPod
Go to Pandora (best site ever ... I've got it's app. Cause I'm jsut that boss)
And I decide to look up my very Aria music
That being Starfucker, The Ruby Suns, Of Montreal, Empire of the Suns
I get bored
I listen to electronic-indie music
Cause I'm just that cool
Anyways, that's all
Hearts! <3
