100 Day Photo Challenge - Day 1

Yes, 100 - I'm sure everyone is familiar with the 50 day photo challenge
Well screw that
I'm a rebel xD
So I found the 100 day photo challenge
And THAT is what I'm doing

So here is Day 1 - A picture of yourself taken the first day of the challenge

I look smexy in my fedora xD
Don't deny it

Anyways ... That's day numero uno

I find it sad

Sad that girls my age deal with so much

And I say that I have a lot going on

That girls my age have abusive fathers

Or teen pregnancy

Or no parents at all

I feel sad and I feel disappointed in myself

Because I don’t think I deserve to be so sad and upset with my life

Because there are so many other girls

Who have it much worse off

And hardly complain

Though I am also inspired

To make myself a better person

To bear through the little pains of life

And improve who I am

Use it to fuel my future

Because I feel I owe it to the girls

The other girls who aren’t so lucky

I owe it to them to take what I have

And act as it’s been served to me on a silver platter

Because the other ones

The unluckier ones

They deserve at least that from me

And I owe it to them

That's all I wanted to say

I had it on my mind

I don't think I exuded it correctly

Didn't put what I was thinking into the right words

But I don't know how I else I could have said it

I just hope my point got across

That no matter how things get

I can promise you

There is someone worse off

And you owe it to them to stick it out

The Only Exception

I ish back
I didn't really go anywhere (Well actually I'm on vacay in Oregon - Seaside rules!)
But I haven't written anything in awhile
Though A LOT has happened
Uh, a lot of stuff with my dad and his crazy ass ex, a lot of stuff with my mom, school is out, I sort of kind of burned down a dumpster (Completely accidental! I swear), I was able to hang out with the cousin of my sort of friends. I'm more friends with his cousin - which sucks cause he lives toooooo far away. And somehow I ended up with a boyfriend. The afore-mentioned cousin. Uh ... and unlike a lot of my previous boyfriends I'm not getting a shit load of anxiety over it.

So that's what this post is about
Because I've stupidly gone and got a major crush
And he likes me
And we're dating
But I don't completely buy it
I hate being a teenager (I feel like such a cliche')

For those of you don't know
The Only Exception is a song by Paramore
I used to hate it
I hated love songs in general (Still kinda do)
I do not believe in love
Maybe I'm too young to believe that
Fine
But see some stuff that I've seen and tell me you still believe
I just think it's bullshit
So why, I ask myself, do I date
Obviously I'm not going to marry (well i don't plan on getting married ever) anyone I've dated in my adolesence
And I'm obviously not going to fall in love with any of them
But ... he's just too sweet and too nice and too funny and and and
Dammit
I need to just stop thinking about it
I'm sure he's not

I should probably bring up the whole "anxiety about bf's thing"
Yeah ... with all of my previous boyfriends I got really bad anxiety when I had to talk to them
Or have any communication with them
I'm just not good at affection
I show affection with violence
Seriously, ask any of my friends
And they can tell you I am very intimidating
But I don't get like that this time
Maybe I've just matured more
I don't know
Like I said
I don't believe in love and I know if there is such a thing, I'm too young to be experiencing it
But I can tell you that I realllllly like him
Which sucks cause it's going to suck when we break up
I don't know when that will happen, but obviously it will

Anyways ... that's what I've been up to
Oh, and I do NOT want advice
This isn't an issue, I'm just ranting


Oh and before I forget
I'm going to be making a little page-tab-thingy
For lyrics to some of my favorite songs
Check it out :D

Teen Angst

I feel like a spoiled brat
I hate being a teenager
So, so very much
Just a few seconds ago me and my mom got in a "disagreement" because I've had a tendancy to yell whenever we get in "disagreements"
Which is annoying, because she does to, but she's right
She's my mom and I shouldn't be yelling at her like I'm 5
But she was saying I'm doing it because I'm trying to get it to go my way
Which really annoys me cause it feels like she thinks she knows me better than I know myself, which is bullshit cause there's stuff I know for a fact she doesn't know about me
I am NOT doing it because I think it will get me what I want
I do it because she irritates me so much and I just don't know how to retaliate
I guess it just comes out in yelling
I'm Italian. And a redhead. I'm not just going to sitback while someone tells me what I'm doing is wrong
I know I shouldn't yell at her, and I want to say I can't help it but that'd be complete bull shit
I can help it if I really wanted to

Anyways, I was feeling like a spoiled brat because I kept thinking
"Oh, she doesn't get me. Oh, woah is me. Oh, my mom is a terrible mother" Which all of which except maybe the first one are not true whatsoever
It's just irritating -_-


Stupid teen angst

Hey Guess what?!

More quotes :D Yepp, yet again, I am bombarding you with quotes. Because I ish just that special
Oh, P.S. This is musicians edition so, yeah, it's special


You can't spell stud without std
-Jack Barakat (Lead guitarist of All Time Low)

Tragedy has struck ... we're out of peanut butter
-Alex Gaskrath (Vocalist of All Time Low) - I'm going to have to agree, peanut butter is a nessesity


You can't be afraid of people willing to hurt you, cause if you fear life, then you will never live
-Chester Bennington (Vocalist of Linkin Park)

This is a real dinosaur ... for now
-Brad Delson (Lead guitarist of Linkin Park)

I don't work at being ordinary
-Paul McCartney (The Beatles)

Reality leaves a lot to the imagination
-John Lennon (The Beatles)

Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive
-Gerard Way (Vocalist of My Chemical Romance)
Ok, just an add on to this. I was at one of their concerts with my best friend and right as it got quiet (as quiet as a concert can get) she screamed "Gerard Way I love you and you make me think of sex" Yeah ... because she is jst that cool

If you don't listen you're never going to learn
-Frank Iero (Guitarist of My Chemical Romance)

There's less violence in the world when people are using hula-hoops
-Mikey Way (Bassist of My Chemical Romance)

Too bad you can't quote the look on my face
-Amy Lee (Vocalist of Evanescence)

Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got
-Janis Joplin (come on ... she's Janis freaking JOPLIN)

We like to get our hands dirty every once in awhile, you know?
-Brendon Urie (Vocalist of Panic! At the Disco) ... Who I am going to see on June 24th

Music

Music is my life. I live eat breath dream and ... am...? music.
What is the point of this you ask?
The point, my dear readers, is that I am very saddened
And you wanna know what saddens me?
People always say how much they love music
And how they're obsessed with it and stuff
But they only listen to one specific thing
They don't even give other stuff a chance
Like, rappers always hating on rock
Or rockers always hating on psychadelia
Personally, I think there is good music in all genres
Yes, I'm even talking country
Name any genre (except dubstep, I still haven't gotten around to listening to it yet, I have been meaning to)
and I'm almost certain that I can name a band that I like from it
Country: Johnny Cash
Rap: Beastie Boys
Rock: The Beatles (duh, but some count them as pop :/ so-) Alice in Chains or the Doors
Grunge: Nirvana
Screamo: Escape the Fate (I've recently been really getting into them actually, It's Just Me is awesome)
Psychedelia: Jefferson Airplane
Go on, test me (I dare you)

Another thing that ticks me off is how some people get so technical about music
You can be an awesome guitarist, but be completely technical about it
But you wouldn't be the best guitarist
Jimi Hendrix was so great because it was emotion
Emotion is what truly makes music
Yes, of course you need knowledge of music too to be great
But music is truly built on emotion
I think you feel music more than you hear it to be honest
Call me crazy if you want

Anyways, that's all. My friends and I were talking about music earlier and they were shooting me crap about having a bipolar sense in music ... and everything else O.o but that's another topic (no, I'm not actually bipolar ... well I haven't been diagnosed for it so idk). We started gettting into these topics, at least they agreed music is emotion.

Quotes

I sort of kind of maybe have completely healthy, normal ... maybe not so good addiction to quotes
But hey! It's better than drugs, right?
Here's some of my favorites


Oh, and some I made up, some I don't know who made them


End discrimination, hate everyone
-Anonymous


Your fishy appears to have died of thirst. Have a band-aid and come back to see me in three weeks
-Pon & Zi


You only have one life to do whatever you want with. In 100 years, nobody will remember the stupid mistakes you made so make a fool of yourself while you still have the chance because if you spend all your life trying to be the cools kid around you will never be happy with yourself
-Anonymous


Laugh your heart out dance in the rain, cherish the moment, ignore the pain, live, laugh, love, forgive and forget, life's too short to live in regret
-Anonymous


Life is hard, that's a fact. Sometimes you got to take it, even if you don't want it. 
-Me


It's okay to laugh at me, I only look scary 
-Amy Lee


Is it goo if your vacuum really sucks?
-Anonymous


If barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?
-Anonymous


Everytime I go to the doctors, I get a jacket, a straight one. It makes me feel special cause I get to hug myself
-Anonymous


Cracks in the concrete show that you fall apart, no matter how strong you are
-Anonymous


Hate me for who I am, don't love me for who I am not
-Anonymous


I used to have super powers, but my psychiatrist took them away
-Anonymous


I kind of hate people
-Anonymous


Wow your pants are tight ... so bonerific
-Anonymous .... :D This quote makes me giggle


Touch me and I swear I'll punch you in the nose, but at least try to kiss me
-Anonymous


Not that I care or anything, but what's up?
-Anonymous


Bitch - Slut - Cunt - Whore -Fucker - Douche -Tampon - Condom - I love you too Milena
-One of the many conversations like this between me and my best friend .... because we're just that special


Are you on my side where you want to be different, or you on they're side where you want to throw a football at my head
-Gerard Way <3 <3 <3 Yes, I am a screaming fan girl and I am not afraid to admit it 


I'm not psycho ... I just like psychotic things
-Gerard Way


We like to kidnap them in a van and leave them somewhere dangerous. SURPRISE!
-Gerard Way


Homophobia is gay
-Frank Iero <3 <3 <3


There's less violence in the world when people are using hula hoops
-Mikey Way <3 <3 <3


A friend is nothing but a known enemy
-Kurt Cobain R.I.P.


You get tough like me and you don't get hurt
-Dallas Winston, The Outsiders


So watch your head and watch the ground, it's a silly time to learn to swim when you start to drown
-Tegan Quin <3 If only I were a lesbian (which I'm not, I'm bi-curious)


Everyone loves you when you are six-foot in the ground
-John Lennon <3 <3 <3 R.I.P. .... Fuck you Mark Chapman 


I'm one of those regular weird people
-Janis Joplin <3 R.I.P. I love you like I love my best friend


A kiss with a fist is better than none
-Florence and the machine .... look up the song, it's my favorite by them, yes, even over The Dog Days are Over. Just because it's their single, doesn't make it the best
I'm sorry, my fault, I forgot you were and idiot
-Anonymous


Everything you just read has been brought to you by coca cola. Actually, not really, that stuff gives you cancer, bitch
-Anonymous