The Only Exception

I ish back
I didn't really go anywhere (Well actually I'm on vacay in Oregon - Seaside rules!)
But I haven't written anything in awhile
Though A LOT has happened
Uh, a lot of stuff with my dad and his crazy ass ex, a lot of stuff with my mom, school is out, I sort of kind of burned down a dumpster (Completely accidental! I swear), I was able to hang out with the cousin of my sort of friends. I'm more friends with his cousin - which sucks cause he lives toooooo far away. And somehow I ended up with a boyfriend. The afore-mentioned cousin. Uh ... and unlike a lot of my previous boyfriends I'm not getting a shit load of anxiety over it.

So that's what this post is about
Because I've stupidly gone and got a major crush
And he likes me
And we're dating
But I don't completely buy it
I hate being a teenager (I feel like such a cliche')

For those of you don't know
The Only Exception is a song by Paramore
I used to hate it
I hated love songs in general (Still kinda do)
I do not believe in love
Maybe I'm too young to believe that
Fine
But see some stuff that I've seen and tell me you still believe
I just think it's bullshit
So why, I ask myself, do I date
Obviously I'm not going to marry (well i don't plan on getting married ever) anyone I've dated in my adolesence
And I'm obviously not going to fall in love with any of them
But ... he's just too sweet and too nice and too funny and and and
Dammit
I need to just stop thinking about it
I'm sure he's not

I should probably bring up the whole "anxiety about bf's thing"
Yeah ... with all of my previous boyfriends I got really bad anxiety when I had to talk to them
Or have any communication with them
I'm just not good at affection
I show affection with violence
Seriously, ask any of my friends
And they can tell you I am very intimidating
But I don't get like that this time
Maybe I've just matured more
I don't know
Like I said
I don't believe in love and I know if there is such a thing, I'm too young to be experiencing it
But I can tell you that I realllllly like him
Which sucks cause it's going to suck when we break up
I don't know when that will happen, but obviously it will

Anyways ... that's what I've been up to
Oh, and I do NOT want advice
This isn't an issue, I'm just ranting


Oh and before I forget
I'm going to be making a little page-tab-thingy
For lyrics to some of my favorite songs
Check it out :D